I woke up with a very bad headache. 6 in the morning. It is my toothache that causing the headache.
So I got up, took medicine and brushed my teeth.
I checked my phone and its Grace greeting me a good morning. Good morning too I replied. She said "first thing I saw this morning in my news-feed is your Facebook statuses". I just replied "I gotta run my dog first".
I fed Louie with 2 pieces of bread, harnessed his sling and we ran at the roads.
I let him have fun with grasses as soon as we found a perfect spot. We actually found two.
My dog was very happy and playful and I thought I am really gaining his trust. I let him play a little more while. Then when I noticed he is getting tired we started to run back home.
So I woke up early today with the notification sound from my smartphone.
It is 7 O' clock in the morning. I read my messages. It was Grace, a friend of mine greeting me a good morning. She is in Pangasinan since last night. She was sad because she don't want to be there. She doesn't want to be far from me, from her friends and from her boyfriend.
Good morning, I replied. And I told her to just try to enjoy her stay there for the mean time. I even suggested that she read the basic mobile phone photography online. So, I said I have to say goodbye for now because I will walk my sister's dog named Louie.
I stood up, boiled water for coffee and bought bread at the nearest bakery. I prepared food for the dogs, had my breakfast with my mom and went outside.
Anxiety and depression pollutes my mind. I become sad not because of the sad memories but because of the good ones. I am also disappointed not because of what happened to me but because I let it happen.
You see most of the time it is on our decision s in life that give us regrets. I never want to blame myself of all the bad things. It is so tiring. My heart is exhausted of the aches. Its been 3 months since I left Cebu City. I am now living in my Mom's house here in Manila.
When I woke up it makes so hard for me to go back to sleep.
So I decided to go out today. I thought about the place where I usually go years ago. Hoping to find peace of mind. Hoping to find inspiration and more understanding of myself. And most of all, I wanted to find the strength to forgive myself.
The only place to go that I know which includes animals, different animals and a lake is the Wildlife conservation and rehabilitation center. Ideal for my troubled mind.
So I had my lunch, prepared my bag, tablet, tripod and Smartphone with me. I also tried not to turn on my data thus, the purpose of this trip is to find serenity and distance from people.
From my house I walked to the terminal of tricycle. I just would like to mention that girl had a very satisfying smell. I'm not sure if its her perfume of the smell of her hair or just that cheap baby powder or a mix of both. I did my best not to talk or even look at her face. She is cute though.
I hopped out of the tricycle without hesitation as we split ways.
While I was walking at the bridge I noticed the clouds in the direction where I am going is getting dark. I guess it is gonna rain. Just perfect!!!
I get in a bus, noticed some water droplets sticking outside the window. As soon as I hopped out the bus, my Phone rang. I answered the call and yes, you guessed it! It is a callback from that BPO company where I applied online. Same drill. She asked questions, I answer 'em with polite voice and happy conversation. She said I passed the initial interview and I thanked her for baring with me given the loud noises from the vehicles.
A moment of walk to where I wanted to go and, there. Wildlife, I am at.
I paid for entrance fee which I didn't expected from 8 pesos before now it is 30.
Walked to find the old big bird cages.
You'll find out what happened next if you watch this video of mine.
