Appropriation

Gazing again........

While I can hear the song "Maybe it's wrong to say please love me too" at Sister Emer's canteen.

Am I really loving someone that's in love with someone else?

If that's unfair, isn't it also unfair that my girl before has been owned by someone else?

I think that is not really love but appropriation.

Human nature in which is hard to avoid. That is also the reason there's the so called "war" between Android and iOS", the copyright issues.

That is also the reason there is ugliness and beauty.

It is already June 14, 14 days left before Boss Art comes back. I still haven't practiced tennis since June 3.

Its been useless, boring and nonsense days and sleepy mornings. Its the third time I go to work half-day this week. I've been very lazy. Its hard to sleep at night because of the many things that runs in my mind. Whether there's internet connection or not. 

I am also a prison worrying. Because of remembering so many things. I fail to start anything. I can't accomplish anything. Yesterday when I checked the poll of my bog, it is already more than 3000 views. Although no one messages or reply. Most of my blog entries is written in Tagalog. Love just ain't enough, It that love really? Or, do I still believe in it? The real love is about giving and understanding right? A mystery that only few can obtain. It also depends on how it is seen and also varies between different cultures.

Me? what should I choose? Or better question, who shall choose me? If someone tells me she loves me, could there be worth or could there surpass the worth of love that I once had?

How would I budget my time? which should I give full attention?

In myself? my lost family? to the beautiful girl that is almost perfect but uses me and only lets me expect? to the girl that hopes someday we will meet again? with a girl that is younger than me and knows less experience, knows less about life? to a beautiful girl that doesn't see it, doesn't care about it and only wants to enjoy sports which mostly played by men? In music?

Whom should I appropriate?

Whom should appropriate me?